Steve, I feel your disappointment and worry. Easy for me to say, but don't worry too much, it won't help, it will only make you sadder.
So, listen to Michael, he has good advice. Take the time to read his site, study it, it will help you out beyond your wildest dreams.
But, now, if I were you, I would prepare to keep an eye out for swarms. Read the posts about swarm catching and be ready. That will take you into a really interesting part of beekeeping and should you catch a swarm(s), you will be very proud of yourself. It is a wonderful thing that will boost your self-esteem with the bees. This will make you feel like you are in control again.
Steve, you will have many challenges when you are entering this world of beekeeping. Don't ever let any of it get you down, just remember, it is all learning curves and each one that you conquer will make you a better beekeeper. Only knows, I have made so many mistakes that if I let them get me down I would have surely quit the scene. BUT no, keep on keepin' on!!!! You have a great day, have fun with the bees, keep the head up and in the clouds, great health!!! Cindi