Matthew, sorry that you got so depressed, that can really upset the human soul. I have not read your long post, sorry, but I get the gist, you did not find a wife, but you somehow got back some bees, yeah!!! Tried mushrooms years ago, forgot mushrooms years ago, never to try mushrooms again, bad experiences!!! The Stuntzes (sp) grow around my chickenyards and blueberry patch, from the old horse poopy stuff (no Liberty Caps at my place though). Keep that chin up, life is good. Have that most wonderful and awesome day, Cindi